It's inevitable the best mom/dad ever, the worst mom/dad ever WILL be both loved and hated at some point in time. To those who continue to constantly hate their parents long into adulthood I ask 2 questions.
1-Are they continuing to do something so offensive it is unforgivable?
2-Do you hate yourself and who you are today?
I ask because if your parent(s) are not continuing to mistreat/abuse/otherwise drive you insane and you love yourself and who you are today I do not understand this logic. Your parents made you into who you are every experience you have (good or bad) has made you into the person you are today.
I have Yo-Yo'd I love my mom, but I have hated her too at times, As a teen I Hated her for being so stinkin strict, for making me stick to curfew for making me honest...along with numerous other reasons, I do not think you could have made me actually like my mom when I was a teen!! Now I look back...my mom expected quality when I swept the floors, expected responsibility for my pets I had taken on along with so many other expectations of me, I am not sure if I made her proud when I was a teen I know I gave her a lot of heartache, she worried if I would succeed and if I would be able to decipher right from wrong.
Touching base on my dad....I have gone through the same hating, loving and indifferences with him. He has been in Prison since I was about 2. I was a "daddy's girl" I love my dad, he used to tie my arms behind my back and made great crab-cakes. As a very young adult I was arrested I spent 2 days in jail...Then was the first time in my life I ever hated him. He had messed up in prison and was sentenced to additional time!! I did not understand how he could have chosen prison over me! Now I understand that this while it was a choice was due to fear of getting out, prison is all my dad knows, the world has changed so much in the last 20 years! Now, I am indifferent toward him, I love him but do not wish to re-build a relationship with someone who may never actually be able to be there.
To answer my questions of myself, I LOVE who I am today, I am hard-working, I am responsible and I am a passionate and strong willed person. My mom, dad, the military and my life experiences both good and bad have all shaped me into the person I am today.
In the eyes of a young child their parents are perfect. Through the eyes of a teen all parental figures suck! They are purely a nuisance that gets in the way of a good time. Through the eyes of a young adult who is forming who they are away from their parents, most go through bouts of loving/hating their parents when they think "why the heck did my mom do that" and other times where they remember how badly they need their parents advice and approval. Through the eyes of a first time mom your mom becomes a saint.
Now as the mom of toddlers I realize I use/need my moms advice/techniques and greatly enjoy her approval in things that I do, especially when they pertain to my children.
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